Secret #4

I hate applying myself.



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Now really, how stupid of a secret is that? But it's the truth. I hate having to try hard. I just want to be good at it. I don't want to study for hours, I don't want to have to do my homework to get good grades. I don't want to move up to a better paying position because I'd actually have to try at work. I often don't write just because it's hard. And why am I like that? I don't want to be. I don't want to be that kind of lazy. I want to work for it, because it always tastes sweeter that way. I think it probably goes back to the change issue. I don't want to change for anything. I want to stay the same, for time to be unmoving. But I know that things have to keep chugging on. I know that I have to work hard.

But it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to. :)