Secret #1

I'm lonely.



Kind of pathetic for someone who acknowledges themselves a shut in. But both are really true, and it stinks. I used to have a best friend, until she went away to college and forgot me. Now It's just me, myself, and I. In the beginning I didn't really mind, I've always been kind of a loner. But a couple years of being a loner has got me feeling like such a lamer.

The weird thing is, that I have had opportunity to meet other people, I mean seriously... I'm in college!! But what's my deal? Why can't I break out, and actually get to know someone? Why do I hide from the world?

Maybe because it's taking the easy road. I don't have to put any effort into friendship.

Or because I'm afraid that by putting myself out there I'll get rejected and hurt.

But what is life if you don't take chances? Looking down the road at being a shut in for the rest of my life is kind of scary. I don't want to live alone with a billion cats. Really I don't.

So all of you out there who aren't shut ins, do you have any advice? :)