2010 Resolutions

My first resolution for 2010: become a better blogger!!

Time passes so quickly, and putting off blogging until tomorrow stretches out for days, and then weeks, and then months and I feel like such a lamer! And I still want to blog.

So here's to 2010, to a fresh start. To a good year.

Happy New Year!

I am a lamer.

Yes the semester got away with me and I failed to continue to post. But alas, I have missed it and hopefully for now I am back.

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Feel Good Of The Day #18

{Actually this is for yesterday since I didn't get one in :) }

Secret #7

Sometimes I just want to be carefree like a little kid again.


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I just want to go back to those times where mom and dad could fix everything, and they wanted to fix everything because I was small and cute and did everything they asked. Back when I didn't make any mistakes besides calling my sister a butthead. That time where tests, and papers didn't matter, all that mattered was that joyful innocence of living everyday. I wanted so badly to grow up, and now all I want is to reverse time. To be young and stupid again. To believe that the world was a good place and that I could have anything I wanted. Anything at all. Where the saddest thing in my life was that dog movie "Homeward Bound". Where I believed in myself, and didn't care what other people thought.

Back when I was happy.

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From Beneath The Sheets #3

{This may very well have a different title every week ;)}



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And here it is again, Sunday morning, relaxing and writing from underneath the cozy sheets of my comfy bed. I hope all of you are having a fantastic morning too.

Advice of the Week: Don't let homework (and or life in general) over stress you. Take a deep breath, step back from it all, and remember that it is going to be okay. Remember that life is good, love is great, and laughing is the best medicine of all.

So keep on laughing.

Love Letters #1

{I've seen on a few blogs writers who like to post poems/songs that they've written. Because I'm a fiction writer I thought it would be fun to do a love letter series. Disclaimer: The following is fictitious and in no way based on actual life events}

Dear Peter,


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I have waited for you. I have hoped for you. I have even prayed for you. But you do not come to me. You do not even see me. Why am I not enough for you? Why am I not enough to make you want to grow up?

I can't wait for you to return from Neverland very much longer. I am getting older with the passing of each day, each hour, each second. And then our time will be gone, and you will be young just the way I remember. I will be old and covered in wrinkles unlike you remember. And it will be inevitable that my bones will become brittle, my hair white and thin, and I will die so quickly that you may never even know what happened to me, because you do not know what time is.

So come to me now. Fly to me on the night breeze, across the stars because I am enough. Because you have decided that you miss me and can't stand one more second without me. Because I love you Peter Pan and I can't stand one more second without you.

Please come back.

Love,
Wendy Darling

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Quiet Reflections: coming back down to earth

{So I was just in a really bad mood for the first half of today. Angry at myself, angry at school and stupid professors, and everything. And then I saw something on the news that brought me back to earth, and reminded me what life is all about.}

There was a boy who died this morning on the way to school where I live. He was seventeen. I didn't know him, but I've been crying for him. For his family and his friends who lost him. I cry because this time yesterday he had no idea that his last day on earth was slipping away. When he woke up this morning he probably brushed his teeth, ate his favorite cereal, kissed his mom goodbye. He didn't know he was about to die. All those times as a kid when he wondered what he would be when he grew up, or who he would marry, or where he would go to college won't ever happen, because now he's gone.

How does that happen? How does life get cut so sudden and so short? And because it does how do we so easily forget what life is about, and why it matters? How do we let so much slip out of our grasps?


To this boy, I am thinking of you, of your family and friends, of all the people who will remember you, of the imprint you left on the world. These balloons are for you. Rest in Peace.



To those who are reading this stop for a moment in your day, and remember why you're living it.






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Letters To My Future Self #3

Dear Self,

Remember that there are always hard times but maybe the hard times and crappy feelings make living worth it.


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The truth is, right now, I hate college, and I'm having a really hard time with it. I could quit but there's always going to be hard times, even for you future self. Just because college is over doesn't mean everything is going to end up happy and good all of the time. So through all of the crap and hopeless feelings remember to keep treading water to keep your head above the surface. Push through one more hour, one more day, one more week until the good times come.

Ode To Autumn

Well not exactly, I'm not going to write a poem, but since today is the first day of fall (YAY!!!) I thought I would give a little nod to the weather, and urge it to stop getting hot where I live.



















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Secret #6

{ I know I should've posted this yesterday, but man it was another crappy monday... anyway here it is!}

I have a ridiculous imagination sometimes.



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But not necessarily in the way one would think. I'm talking about how my imagination runs wild when a guy talks to me. *giggle* ;) It's probably proof that I'm starved for some kind of social life *cough* a boyfriend *cough*. What I'm trying to say is that if a guy even says hello to me, or asks me a question, or is nice to me I give him a smile and behind my fluttering eyelids I see something similar to this:



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Maybe I'm not the only girl who does that, but I think it's really funny that if a guy gives me a smile I'm planning our first date, our first kiss, our wedding day. My mind takes off, and suddenly our entire future is planned out right down to sitting on an old front porch in creaky rocking chairs.

This really showcases my inner romantic, the closet side of me that I only reveal on special occasions/when I'm feeling particularly lonely, or down on myself. I want a life full of long walks on the beach, romantic candlelight dinners


But it really showcases my inner romantic, I guess. I want long walks on the beach, dinner and movie dates, actually any date.

I'm really shy/bashful I'm never brave enough to get to know a guy well enough, and make friends with a guy who then could ask me on a date. I know that it's really my anti-socialness that's the problem, and hopefully I can work on that.

But I still let my imagination run wild. I still see me being happy with the random guy who smiled at me.



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Sunday Morning Beneath The Sheets #2

I hope all you bloggers out there are having a nice Sunday morning, staying late beneath the sheets, and catching up on the lost sleep of the week, or watching a good movie, or reading an amazing book.


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Advice of the week: Find time to treat yourself to something special. Everyone knows that life gets busy but if you don't stop, take a deep breath, and go buy yourself some ice cream or spend a half hour shopping, or doing whatever it is you love to do you might just go insane.

And Sunday is such a fantastic stay home day, anyway.

So make yourself breakfast in bed and read a book. :)

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Dear Professor #2

Dear Professor,
(ouch sorry that's two rants for you in a row!!)

So I understand that you think profanity in story makes it good. It has to be somehow disgusting, disturbing, have some twisted unrealistic ending. I beg to differ. All a story needs to be good is have human moments human characters. That glimpse at some small truth, or some moving passage that you read and say "oh my gosh I've been there". It makes you want to change how you live, it moves you to tears just because it means something to you personally. That's what fiction is to me.

And for your class I won't change my standards. I'm going to write what I think I should write. Period.

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Secret #5

I'm afraid to face the world.



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When things get hard, I just want to look away. Turn around. Give up. Things are scary out there. Being an adult, and accountable for your actions and choices is scary. The world can be harsh, but perhaps if we're brave enough, to turn around a look, there will be a lot of good things to see.

So take a deep breath, and face it.

One of those Days

I should've known when my hair refused to do what I wanted it to do, that today was going to begin really crappy.



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I go to history, sit through a discussion on a book we read and wrote a paper on. Realize that my paper is WRONG. Try to fix, then erase corrections, accept fate, and turn it in.

Go to Poetry. Class workshops MY poem which I know stinks, but hey I'm not a poet. So I sit there, clicking my pen telling myself over and over that I don't care what they think. Guess I really do. They didn't get it. They didn't like it. My professor says it "had good moments". That's what I say to someone when their poem is so bad it can't be fixed.

Go to fiction, sit through fifty freaking minutes of nothing. Of my teacher rave about this disgusting, disturbing story that I won't even name. Realize that I have a short story due friday that I don't have any ideas on.

Go to be my car. I've been blocked in by some idiot who parked behind me against a red painted sidewalk. Hello idiot! Try to back out without hitting someone, whilst noticing a guy walking by and laughing at me.

Though it could be worse. I could be poor poor taylor swift who got snuffed by that douche Kanye at the VMAs.

I could be the kid walking in front of me as I exited the liberal arts building. Who instead of stepping through the door smacked into the window. Lol.

Smile Little Robot. It will be okay.

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Letters To My Future Self #2

Never forget your family.



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They may be really annoying, in fact they may drive you insane most of the time, but never forget they're the ones who put up with your whining. They help you when you're hurt, they find you when you're lost, they're there for you when you wake up with bad breath and hair the size of the state of Texas. They love you, don't forget to love them back.

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Secret #4

I hate applying myself.



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Now really, how stupid of a secret is that? But it's the truth. I hate having to try hard. I just want to be good at it. I don't want to study for hours, I don't want to have to do my homework to get good grades. I don't want to move up to a better paying position because I'd actually have to try at work. I often don't write just because it's hard. And why am I like that? I don't want to be. I don't want to be that kind of lazy. I want to work for it, because it always tastes sweeter that way. I think it probably goes back to the change issue. I don't want to change for anything. I want to stay the same, for time to be unmoving. But I know that things have to keep chugging on. I know that I have to work hard.

But it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to. :)

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Letters To My Future Self #1

{ Melissa B. over on So About what I said (melissabxoxo.blogspot.com check it out!) Writes letters to her future husband which are totally adorable, and poetic, and inspiring. I was going to do that, but was inspired instead to write letters to my future self, about what I want to remember about my life that's right now. Enjoy!}



Dear Self,

There have been times where life hasn't been easy. The adjustment to college was literally painful. Staying up all night to write a paper or cram for a test. Saying goodbye to Grandpa last January. Hoping Grandma can fight off cancer just a little bit longer, because you're selfish and want her to stay forever.

There have been lonely times, sad times, mad times. So the most important advice that I can give you, future self, is to never give up on it. By "IT" I mean life, on living. Sometimes it's easy to forget that we're on this planet for just a short time, that none of us will get out alive in the end. It's easy to get caught up in school, and work, and whatever else is going on. It's easy to be drowned out, to lose yourself underneath it all. You become a cog in the machine, and I'm sure in the future it will get worse. Driving kids to soccer practice, PTA meetings, all that jazz. So don't lose yourself underneath it all. Remember who you are, and who you were.

Remember life is worth every last second.

Dear Professor #1

{Nothing against college professors in general, really just my professors, presumably the ones I can't stand and the ones who make university worth it}

So you see Mr. Fiction teacher, today in class when discussing the art of writing I couldn't believe your dissing of the mass publishing market, of the lined shelves of Barnes and Nobel, or your corner bookstore. In fact I believe you said that you don't understand how a spy/mystery novel fits into the art of writing at all. Really... REALLY? Who are you to say that what the spy/mystery/writer who caters to the "average reader" does not sculpt a piece of art? To them writing that novel IS their art. And people READ their art. And oh believe it or not people can actually LEARN things from it. That's right, I dare say it!

When someone picks up a book it isn't always because they want to focus on/discover the complicated inter workings of the human mind. Sometimes they want to be superhuman, or go on adventures that humans wouldn't really ever go on, because it's different, it's completely unrealistic, but that's why it's fantastic. I'm sorry that you think reading a piece of fiction about a man cheating on his wife teaches us about life, that it explores some kind of flaws in humanity. Believe it or not a love story about a man who adores his wife could be just as well written, AND could be published for the "average reader" as you put it.

Maybe the inter workings of your mind are too complicated to understand the simplistic nature of reading a novel for FUN.

Oh and wait, there's more!

Sometimes I read Bubblegum/cotton candy teen novels (that I BY THE WAY WRITE) and actually learn something.

Feel Good Quote Of The Day #6

Yeah! What Charlie Brown said!

Secret #3

I have so neglected you! School started, and whoom off it goes. But I'm making a goal to take time to keep blogging because I do love it so!

Secret #3



I'm afraid of people. Afraid of what they think of me, of what they see in me, of what they want from me. How stupid is that, really? You can't run your life off of people's opinions of you. I know this, and yet, the doubt, the shyness. It's still there. And I still worry.

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Secret #2

I'm afraid I'll never be good enough to do the things I want to do.



See the thing about writing is that it's very subjective. People have to like it for you to make a living off of it, right? So instead of spending my time actually doing what I'm good at, I spend it pondering whether or not I'll ever actually get a chance to do it (as in get published, have readers, etc.) And does that really make any sense?

Shouldn't I spend my time doing it instead of worrying about it?

Just write.

I love that phrase, it's simple yet speaks volumes. Pack away the worry, and the fact that I secretly doubt my worth, and just do it because I love it.

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Write It Down

So I listened to a very interesting discussion about journal writing today, and it really made me think about not only blogging, but keeping a journal just for yourself. Record your life. For future generations and for your future self. And hey even for your present self. Spew those bad feelings, and then rip up the paper and chuck it (that way you never have to read it again, ha ha.)

But writing is so important. I think sometimes when I'm doing it I catch a glimpse of myself, of the person I am deep down on the inside, that part of you that you forget exists, or that you've never met. It's there waiting for you to find it.

So write.

Sunday Morning Still In Bed

So I couldn't think of a better name for the segment at the moment, but I thought it would be cool to showcase one of my favorite sunday activities, which is staying tucked in bed late into the morning, avoiding having to get up and do that boring breakfast-shower-make-up-hair-teeth routine for a just a little while longer.

Anyway, it is in this segment that I will unleash "Confessions" which are different than secrets. Confessions are more of slightly embarrassing tidbits about myself.

So here it goes. Confession #1

I am addicted to the ABC Family show Make It Or Break It. It's full of stupid girl drama, but I LOVE IT.

And the season finale is tomorrow :(

What will I do with out?

Writing From Beneath the Sheets, hope you have an awesome Sunday.

- Miss Mindymus.

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Technically It's Sunday...

But I'm posting as if it were Saturday. haha. I spent all day being bored, until the end of it. When I worked with Imovie and made a little slide show of some pictures I've taken over the year - because I LOVE photography, amateur photography that is... ;)

But I set it up to this song called Beautiful Life, and it made me realize...

Life is Beautiful, and we only have it once. Why am I spending it as a shut in? Why am I resigning myself to this fate?

So the challenge here I offer to everyone, including myself.

Jump.



There is only one life. Live it the best of your ability, and don't waste it.

I don't want to waste it anymore. Find out what's important, like family and friends, and doing what you love the most. Don't listen to the criticism of others unless it's constructive. And always love, there can never be too much.

Youtube

So I think I'm going to do some type of youtube segment, because I'm kind of youtube obsessed, so it'll be the video of the week, or maybe every other day... or maybe fridays? I don't know but here is the video of today!!

It's this awesome cover of Taylor Swift Love Story from Romeo's point of view. Enjoy!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2VF4nh7hEeg&feature=channel_page

Last Day Of Summer

It's true, I just typed those horrible little words. Today is the last day of my summer.



I'm back on campus Monday morning bright and early. Why oh why have you deceived me summer? You came full of promise, dreams, and adventure, and are leaving memories, and a sun burn. Okay, that's a lie about the sun burn. But still... why must it go by so fast?

That's the problem with summer. At the beginning all you can see is a list of goals, you are going to be a different person this time around, and then it's gone, and it's still the same old you hanging around.

So because of this melancholic day I offer a dare. Complete now or on your last day of summer, but do something crazy simply because it's the last day. Now nothing dangerous crazy, just fun. And well let's face it "Crazy" for me is probably like normal for everyone else.

But I think mayhap I'll go to a... *pauses with anticipation* concert tonight.

Haha that's the goal we'll see if it happens.

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Secret #1

I'm lonely.



Kind of pathetic for someone who acknowledges themselves a shut in. But both are really true, and it stinks. I used to have a best friend, until she went away to college and forgot me. Now It's just me, myself, and I. In the beginning I didn't really mind, I've always been kind of a loner. But a couple years of being a loner has got me feeling like such a lamer.

The weird thing is, that I have had opportunity to meet other people, I mean seriously... I'm in college!! But what's my deal? Why can't I break out, and actually get to know someone? Why do I hide from the world?

Maybe because it's taking the easy road. I don't have to put any effort into friendship.

Or because I'm afraid that by putting myself out there I'll get rejected and hurt.

But what is life if you don't take chances? Looking down the road at being a shut in for the rest of my life is kind of scary. I don't want to live alone with a billion cats. Really I don't.

So all of you out there who aren't shut ins, do you have any advice? :)